Is it possible to have scanxiety even though you aren't having a scan? Yes. I had my follow up appointment today with both the mastectomy doctor and the reconstruction doctor. Today is Friday and I haven't slept a wink all week. I have had nightmares every night. My fear is that they tell me I have skin cancer.
If you are wondering why I chose skin cancer to be fearful of, it's because I have had these strange rash type itchy patches on my legs for a few weeks now and they don't go away with anti-fungal cream or cortizone cream or any of the dry skin creams I used during chemo when my skin was at its worst...or so I thought. I never had these strange patches of skin irritation during chemo.
Both doctors came in on separate occasions, looked at the rash and said there is a possibility of basal cell which is a type of skin cancer. Tammy, who is my nurse practitioner said it's ringworm. So, I will continue to use the cream and if no improvement in one month, they will biopsy the area.
What I was hoping for from the doctors was a clear statement that without a doubt it was just a skin rash that will clear up. But instead, I got a wishy washy maybe its this or that. In my mind, fears are validated. BUT, I will believe that its just ringworm, a bacterial fungus type thing that goes away with the use of the cream.
I do have good news... I lost another 10 lbs! I now weigh less than I did when I was first diagnosed back in October 2013! Over 10 lbs less!
Now to find a way to sleep without worry for the next 30 days...
If you are wondering why I chose skin cancer to be fearful of, it's because I have had these strange rash type itchy patches on my legs for a few weeks now and they don't go away with anti-fungal cream or cortizone cream or any of the dry skin creams I used during chemo when my skin was at its worst...or so I thought. I never had these strange patches of skin irritation during chemo.
Both doctors came in on separate occasions, looked at the rash and said there is a possibility of basal cell which is a type of skin cancer. Tammy, who is my nurse practitioner said it's ringworm. So, I will continue to use the cream and if no improvement in one month, they will biopsy the area.
What I was hoping for from the doctors was a clear statement that without a doubt it was just a skin rash that will clear up. But instead, I got a wishy washy maybe its this or that. In my mind, fears are validated. BUT, I will believe that its just ringworm, a bacterial fungus type thing that goes away with the use of the cream.
I do have good news... I lost another 10 lbs! I now weigh less than I did when I was first diagnosed back in October 2013! Over 10 lbs less!
Now to find a way to sleep without worry for the next 30 days...
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